||[Jun. 30th, 2005|03:13 am]
the dog swallowed my dharma
the worse times are late at night.
like right now.
or early morning. when the sun comes up.
i never sleep in between anymore
or even the other 'in between' (during the day)
during those long hours, i just feel numb
and like a zombie.
i try to have a good time surrounding myself with company.
but i just end up having to "go to the bathroom"
and burst out in pain and agony.
how many tears does it take?
i hate this.
i wish it would all just go away.
this calamitous...horribly empty feeling.
i just want it to end completely.
and this thinking...
i mean, fuck.
my fucking mind is racing constantly.
i cant take this.
i cant take me.
or thinking about you.